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I’ve been sleeping a lot lately, thanks to my irritating headache problem that is making dizzy, tired and just like a sloth. I havn’t been doing much reivision or studying, or even my homework cos I’m too tired. Today was the first time ever in my life that i did a CT scan. It was a CT scan on my sinuses (empty cavaity in one’s forehead). I had to lie down on this funny little bed and it rose before moving loudly. I had to close my eyes as the nurse told me there was like lasers. My face started to feel warm and there were very loud sounds, like a crowded MRT station on a busy day. It was really weird. And who ever knew that they offered this serice all the way in orchard road in Shaw plaza.

I just know that this problem would go away =) positive thinking! Because of this, it has thrown my reivison scheldue out of the window. ARRRGGGHHHH. I want my 8 raw score L1R5… I just know I’ll catch up to it.

headaches

I guess I’d have to live with it for now.. it hurts. damn it. Reading about it online, I get scared when i read about other people’s long-term headaches. I really hope that it ain’t going to last any more than this weekend. It so totally sux.

my head

it hurts. crap. i need a doctor who would clear the pain up. hurts since monday. wah. 4 days and counting. sian.

listen

i feel like buying a brand new album. But I don’t want to waste my money and time.. arrrgghhh.

find this to be a really cool band. Alternative rock genre… maybe I’ll not get it after all.

I had listening compre today.

Disappointed? No. Expecting much? No.

I havn’t continued finding music through triple J in a long time.. the songs there are really nice.. Just a few hours of slacking. OMG did i say a few hours? lol. its’ a great place to find out cool indie songs that are legally free to download. I really like such songs.. contemporary, indie, alternative. cool. haha.

http://www.triplejunearthed.com/Default.aspx

fri-sat

Watched harry potter yesterday. It was really nice, but what it lack was the “action-filled” climax with voldermort, which should be why some give it bad reviews. But i personally find it really nice. Rotten tomatoes, IMDB give this movie the highest rating of all the harry potter shows so it doesn’t make sense why Singapore critics do not like it. There was one part where I actually jumped, pushing myself against the seat. It was funny that i got a fright. And when i got home yesterday, i was exhausted. 

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Life is like a farris wheel.

Sometimes, the only way to find out what there is around you, is when there’s nothing ahead at all.

 

(* took this at  chinese garden quite some time back*) I really like that place. Its’ quite, usually people-free, and at certain areas, the sight of heavy establishment of humans totally disappear. nice.

another random day

Okay. I do not know why am i wasting time using the computer now. Oh, in geog class today for some reason, I suddenly remembered a day when I was in Albany (Australia) last year. I remembered being in the car as my mum drove as we made our way to our motel. I remember looking at the side mirrors and saw the amazing sunset. Thinking about it, it was stunning. The sky was firey red, almost like cotton candy. The sun was vivid. The field was vast and there were many cars taking that highway linking the towns to the city, Albany. It was so beautiful. I didn’t take any picture as i was tired. WHY!!?? lol.  I want to be back there soon. . . That has to be the holiday in which i enjoyed my self most.. also took another sunset picture there…  

I did several personality tests yesterday as I was writing my testimonial and was trying to find words to describe myself last night. I never knew writing a testimonial could take so long, and i wrote very little. Okay, i’m not good as self-promotion (as what mr lee puts it)

According to the Enneagram test, I’m a type four

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People of this personality type tend to build their identities around their perception of themselves as being somehow different or unique; they are thus self-consciously individualistic. Fours tend to see their difference from others as being both a gift and a curse – a gift, because it sets them apart from those they perceive as being somehow “common,” and a curse, as it so often seems to separate them from the simpler forms of happiness that others so readily seem to enjoy.

Fours are somewhat melancholic by disposition, and under stress tend to lapse into depression. They also tend to be self-absorbed, even under the best of circumstances, but when unbalanced, easily give way to a self-indulgence which they perceive as being fully justified as a way to compensate for the general lack of pleasure they experience in their lives. Rather than look for practical solutions to their difficulties, Fours are prone to fantasizing about a savior who will rescue them from their unhappiness.

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I guess personality tests are one way to discover more about one’s self. But everyone is still an unique individual and to catagorize people into several types feel really weird. But it does shed light on one’s personality a little bit more, though such tests at best would be 75% accurate. Even so, these are basic traits and do not really define how one is inside. But having to admit, I am really interested in such tests.

What I really like about what this test says is that I like to be unique. haha. find it really cool but seriouly, I always thought that everyone wants to be unique and different from the rest? I personally can’t stand being normal. I can’t stand feeling like everyone else for too long. I like being different and yearn difference. I hate normalness – whether in life, goals or anything else. I guess as much as it is good it is sort of a problem. I have a tendency to dislike the norm. weird. but yeah.

friday

  I still find it slightly hard to believe that I slept for 10 hours last night. Even though I slept for so many hours, I wasn’t really feeling energized in the morning. I still felt tired. I went to school early this morning, 30 minutes early, for my physics make up lessons. I usually reach school after 8 on Fridays. I was 5 minutes late in the end. Having to honestly admit, I didn’t exactly rush to school. The sky was really nice this morning, soft and hazy, a perfect backdrop to any picture. ARGH. It fuels the urge to start taking photographs again.

  School was normal, but I forgot to bring my PE for the second time. Looking down the list, I am the only one who had forgotten to wear the attire twice. Now I can’t forget again. I must work on my memory. The field was locked this morning, so we were supposed to walk around the school instead. I was actually looking forward to solitude in the field as walking around the school was really dull.

  I really can’t stand my phone nowadays. It beeps like an alarm on max volume every time I type an invalid word when I SMS as well as other random times even on silent mode. And the speaker is spoilt so I can’t blast any songs. Also, I can’t call anyone anymore without hurting my ears. The sound emitted are blurry, loud and with a lot of extra white noises. I find it highly irritating.

  Geog was really tiring today too.

  I wrote another song today. It is definitely not a sad song, but a rather uplifting and lively one (to me that is). HAHA. 

LOST

Every morning I wake up, trying to find the route
Close my eyes and make a guess, would it be alright?
 I could be somebody else, feels so good I think
My mind’s eye blocks out the senses, what’s left to be felt?

With both my hands in the air, could you really see me?
So here I am trying to, find my way once again
Through what my vision permits, I’ll make sense of it all
 I’m going to hold on tight, as I watch it all pass

Another soul trying to find the way
Could searching ever leave an answer
Or just a bigger hole

Cos I’m still lost
But now I just don’t care
Oh I’m still lost
But I just don’t care
I’m enjoying
Everything there is
Oh let the wind
Show me the way ahead

 Everything will pass before I even known the day
I won’t waste time away trying to find words to say
I’m going to trust more of that little voice
Deep inside my head it would be my choice

random

I’ve finally got a book. I’ve been constantly trying to search the web for book reviews till I find a book I like. But after not being able to find a single one I like for more than a month, I gave up and randomly bought a book yesterday. Hopefully its good. lol. Its’ HOME by marilyn something…lol

I still havn’t started revision for Os and I’m feeling rather guilty. I’ll get to it, by the end of the week I’ll start. Can’t wait for the Os to end… For now, I’d want to attend guitar lessons, volunteer for SPCA, go overseas and backpack, play the paino properly once again. There are certainly loads more that I’d want to do!!! haha. Just apx 140 days left till the Os are over. Be positive.haha.

tired

I was really tired today. After having such late release times for the past week, i wonder how I could I not be. I Slept for approximately 2 hours upon reaching home. Yawn. But I had a totally amazing coincidence today. haha. I’m still finding that possibility to be rather impossible.

And today’s oral topic was YOG. This topic is rather normal as it was expected. But afterall, its’ over and the only thing that I can do is to wait for my results after taking the Listening Compre and stop sighing everytime some other day receive a more normal and mundane question.  

I also wrote something, called plastic… was feeling weird and jus had to write it out. lol.

All these plastic people, staring straight at me
I try to look inside, a hollow blankness
Led me through the doorway, best I’d ever seen
But all they’d ever say, scripted words and lies

I could go around this exact same place for the millionth time
But everything that I’d ever see is exactly the same
Plastic people shout we’re going to rule the world
But I’m not going to be here for the plastic invasion
Cos I’ve witness it all with my own vision

All these plastic people, armed with thoughts and plans
It could be really fun, but I’ve had enough
They’re landing on earth now, where to run and hide
Just a false perception, changes everything

I could go around this exact same place for the millionth time
But everything that I’d ever see is exactly the same
Plastic people shout we’re going to rule the world
But I’m not going to be here for the plastic invasion
Cos I’ve witness it all with my own vision

I’m not going to fall for it all again
Great things are just too good to be true
Cos all they’d ever say is still the same
Smiling lying just get me away

And oh.. I just found this video on youtube. I will learn this song one day too… haha. endless goals that would hopefully be completed. Really like this song by the fray.

argh…

Had O level oral today. I practiced considerably the past few nights. I felt as though I could have done so much more though. I started shivering once I sat down on the chair and waited for the person in front of me to finish his Oral. I was shivering, rather uncontrollaby, every now and then as i stared in front. It was horrible. I thought I did relatively ‘okay’ for my conversation till I realize that I mis-interpret the question. It was “your opinion on letting the public use school facilities”, and I thought it was ‘letting public to use the school feild’. Somehow I heard the word 场地! This has to be why the teacher looked surprised when I said that this practice was 普通. I am so totally regretting not asking the teacher just to clarify. feel dumb 0.0.

O level is apx 110 plus days to go. Fast. Fast. It would be over. than this leaves me wondering what i would actually remember and want to remember at the end of it all. I just know that for now, being a mindless studying machine is highly vital from now till the end of O level. Am i capable of being one? i wonder.. really wonder. but regardless, i will get 8 points rather raw or not =) haha.