the past week….

Got a C6 for O level chinese =.= . Okay, never mind. didn’t really had much hope on this anyway.

I only had 5 minutes to prepare for my oral together. All thanks to the WONDERFUL timer, where everyone else, except one person from e1, received their rightful 10 mins =.= okay nvm, because I believe I’ve done okay. yay. =)

haha.

I’ve finished studying chemistry, so I’m slightly relieved. I’m planning to finish half of physics by sunday night. If I don’t start now, I wonder when I’d ever start. lol. Geog? HHmmm, soon i hope. haha.

I guess, its’ really important to be accepting. Being bitter over things solves nothing.Seriously.

Since I don’t want to waste hours writing songs, I’ll just write several lines.lol.

Songs really do make me feel unnaturally placid. =)

Saturday

I’m suddenly feeling oddly inspired and happy after listening to some songs on youtube… haha. one of them is this song below. Its’ really poignant and brings about really nice emotions. WEEEEe…crazy. lol.

I have my english “Os” oral next week, which is really nerve-wrecking. I have been anticipating this exam for quite a while now, but at the same time, I am really terrified by it. For the past few days, I tried recalling as many memories as I can to suit conversational topics before having a little discussion in my little mind. I think of random pictures about Singapore and start describing them constantly. Lol. I am the first person on that day. FIRST. ARRRR….

*excited*terrified*OMG*

Many things seem really perculiar now. Almost like this inexorable cycle, where everything ends up different in the end. Its’ funny at times, but more or less it is really odd. I guess its’ perception; mere perception.

monday

I havn’t switch on the computer for like 5 days, and only turn it on once last week, its’ study time! haha…  I seriously believe that my biggest “slack” causing gadget is the television. I slack in front of it for like a long long time. Sitting down on the couch doing absolutely nothing. Mundane and time-wasting. Haha. the only reason why i’ve switched on this computer was to book some stuff my mother wanted. I’m off to studying once again after a couple of minutes… 

Went back to the doctor two days ago. The nurse implied, *I infered*, that he said my headache was because of me being “over-stress”. I was like.. errrss… okay? And gave her a “should i be offended look”. lols. Then she continued nagging, “too much computer games right? got exercise anot?”. And I was like.. =.=. This was because the scan revealed that the only problem in my nose was a narrowed airway in my nose leading to my nasal cavity. Okay. Complicated. But it can still cause headaches due to the pressure exerted on the nasal cavaties. Thankfully it has never returned ever since. Phew. =)

Spa next week. Scary? well yeah. I just slightly fear physics. I just feel as though there ain’t enough practice.

Find this song to be really nice. Malaysian singer.  I’m gonna get her album. haha. really cool style.

yay. headache gone =)

my headache are thankfully cured =) haha. but my nose is still stuck, so there is still this risk of my nasal cavity being all swollen again. I’ll see the doctor this saturday again. Expensive, expensive doctor. lol. Whenever I visit him (2 times), he would stick this camera – ish device up my nose to observe what is in there. I really wonder how deep he travels. It feels really uncomfortable; a mixture of pain and itch.

There are so many times now that i feel like writing a song, but with the homework, studying to do, I can’t seem to find anytime at all. I guess I could be slightly over sensitive to the things around me. Are words simply words and contain no deeper motive? Could they really be so frivirous? Or are the words simply displaying what one feels inside? The true colours? – i’m listening. I’m watching. I’m wondering. Just shut up. Maybe i’ll write this out, or maybe this thought would just fade away like the rest.

The world is moving.